It’s been too quiet around here, I know. I miss blogging, but my recent circumstances have been a huge drain on my time and unfortunately, it won’t be getting better anytime soon (in fact, I am writing this at lunch because that’s often the only time I get to write).

My dad died at the end of May, about a week before my birthday. He had lung cancer and was doing really well, but the cancer had quietly spread to his brain and he went downhill very suddenly. He was 65.

Two days before Dad was taken into palliative care, I discovered that I was pregnant.

My partner lives in Melbourne and I decided that it would be best for me to move there, as my job can be done remotely and therefore I can take it with me when I move, preserving both of our incomes. This will mean financial security for my new family, but at it also meant upsetting/angering pretty much all of my family in the process, because they are losing me after losing Dad, plus losing the chance to be around the baby when it is born.

I’m excited about being pregnant and about going on a big adventure, but at the same time I feel guilty and that I can’t be openly happy because people around me are grieving (for my Dad, and for me moving away). It is simultaneously the best and most exciting time in my life, and the most upsetting and stressful.

So basically the last few months have been filled with extremely dramatic ups and downs.

Moving two states away is pretty huge. I’ll be going at the start of October, and while that is still two and a half months to prepare, the fact that I work full time and I’m pregnant (and therefore tired a lot) means that I really only have weekends to be able to pack and get organised. 10 or so full weekends seem like plenty to pack – except that I still have animals to take care of, plus help my mum with errands etc. Being pregnant makes me very tired in the middle of the day, so I often have to nap (I get so exhausted that I feel like I might fall on the floor and sleep wherever I end up), and this eats up a lot of my free time, also.

What I’m trying to say is.. I’m in for a very full few months with very little spare time.

I really don’t want to close my blog. It seems far too final. Even if I don’t have time to update weekly, I don’t want to close it. I don’t want it to be “retired” or “inactive” on people’s blogrolls. That makes me sad. I still want the option to randomly blog when I feel like it, but realistically, I won’t be able to keep to much of a schedule. I still want to keep my guide up to date, definitely (it needs some tweaks at the moment, the BIS list needs Sinestra loot added back in, and there are some mistakes I need to fix), but I am struggling to find the time to sit and just write. I miss it, though. I still love to write.

Another thing to consider, on the topic of writing, is that I will most likely create a personal blog for my friends and family to keep up with what’s happening, so that will eat into my free time here and there.

For now though, I’m still playing; I’m enjoying Firelands SO MUCH and love being able to improve my character again. I love getting upgrades and knowing that I am getting stronger. In my small amount of spare time I’ve been working on achievements and finishing up old quests. But a bit of gaming, plus trying to pack up my life, plus trying to get plenty of rest and look after myself, leaves so little time to write. I want to look after myself (and later, I want to restrict the amount of time that I sit at a desk).

And, as much as I love writing about WoW, I don’t really want to let the writing time edge out the playing time.

So this is not a goodbye; rather, it is a courtesy post to let you know that I’m still around, I just might be very quiet, blog-wise, while my life is a bit of a whirlwind and I have so little spare time. I’ll still write, sometimes, but it will be whenever I can find a pocket of free time.

<3 Keeva



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